family tree// you just be

family tree

bark resembling something like

a strip tease

peel it back

and reveal the

bad memories

leaving you to drown with your enemies,

you can’t see,

love drowning out your ability

to keep yourself afloat,

better not rock that boat,

you’ll hit rock bottom

suffocating on second-hand smoke,

thought you could save them all,

you’re caught in deaths choke hold

eyes set like flint

grasping at your beloved fools gold.

growing out of optimism

like the suns gone too cold,

like you’ve grown too old,

don’t you know hearts fold, too?

like even if the sky is blue

don’t mean your minds afresh and new,

don’t mean today is better than yesterday,

but don’t think this faith stuff is a ruse,

it’s all true

my dear.

my dear,

the fear that held your lungs in chains,

making sure you stayed afraid

of the dark that consumed your brain,

can no longer retrieve your name.

the roots of your past

have broken your glass

ceiling

breaching

systems that were meant to disrupt your healing

and rob your peace

but don’t shake,

don’t fall into pieces

because all you needed was Jesus,

all you still need is Jesus.

don’t fret

don’t hurt

don’t twist

don’t turn

take a breath as you take a knee.

keep still

it’ll burn us

he’s there

in the furnace

send a prayer up as you fall asleep.

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a daily battle

i want to know who i am

in Christ

and

i no longer want to listen to the opinions of the

one who wants to kill, steal, and destroy

everything i have.

he tells me that i should

go back,

go back,

go back.

everyday, i scream or whisper

no,

no,

no.

it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do

but i have never been so proud of myself.

my ever growing garden

i don’t know who you thought i was

but sadly you are mistaken.

take your dirt from my palms

and create weeds in your own garden.

i am planted firmly in my dwelling

even if some days i weep and let the wind tear the leafs from my stems.

sure enough, my bark is striped with lessons from childhood

and red stained adolescents.

the sky licks and grooms my budding flowers

and sends them winds of relief from the overbearing heat at noon

and

you…

you are not allowed into this sacred place.

your thorns and bent knees that only praise glory and never pain

could never understand the spines of my past that have twisted and turned

to form the heart shaped petals that have wilted

and grown,

wilted and

grown,

wilted and grown

and remained.

i am grateful for the ache

to every ache that rattled my veins:

i should not have let you steal from me,

i should not have let you dig your hands into my soul.

but,

thank you for showing me that i am strong.

because of you,

i have learned how to fall on my knees and pray.

you meant to drown me,

but i was already drowning in Gods grace.

thank you,

pain.

hurt.

confusion.

sorrow.

thank you for pointing me to my savior.

i wait for Jesus 

i’ve been sinking on the low,

cradling my broken pieces in between bent arms,

trying to figure out what i’m going to do with them.

but i forgot that i didn’t have to figure it out alone,

because along with the puzzle, my heart was a riddle Einstein wouldn’t have the brains to solve.

i forgot who went before me,

followed behind me,

and in desperate times, carried me.

He knows my heart and has solved the riddle ages ago,

now we are both waiting:

i wait for him to show me what my eyes cannot see 

he waits for me to realize that he is all that i need. 

i wait for Jesus.

let me see Jesus. 

Poem Inspired By Inaugaration Day: “In spite of it all;” 

Cries for help 

Are muffled by the hands 

Of those that 

Sit on the titling and vulnerable axis of the earth.

And they only

Bend down,

Arms outstretched in selfish ambition,

To collect the shiny, useless things they crave and devour.

Possessive;

Take what’s yours to take.

The people will suffer but,

Oh,

If you were to spend a day, week–

God forbid! A month…

In their bottomless, worn out shoes,

You would crumble.

Because you are made of straw.

The dirt of this earth, the essence of essential and the basis of our foundation,

Stack them all real high,

Apply some pressure,

And you get steel and brick,

Strong enough to weigh down that paper house of yours.

Shut them up,

But listen closely

To the chains snapping and falling, quite surely,

To the ground.

In spite of it all; watch them fall.