i know i am foolish.
only a foolish girl allows her thoughts to caress
memories that are forbidden.
only she longs for the boy that hurt her when it’s
2 a.m and she needs saving.
she is foolish, yes,
but she is also strong.
though she allows herself to miss him when she feels most vulnerable,
she reminds herself that she is a queen in armor.
she tells her spirit to rise when it has been free-falling from the memory
of his lips and grip.
these nights in the pit are trying
she knows those nights don’t last long,
that the torrent of thoughts are only the waves of lonely
that sneak up on her like a well-acquainted ghost.
she thought he taught her how to get rid of them,
but she’s realized that it is only her that can cast those demons away
is why this foolish girl has grown wings.