i used to love that song,
it’s pulse was synced to my own.
but now it reminds me of the way my
sad eyes wandered around when
my mind couldn’t focus on a single thought.
now it reminds me of the times i would sit
convincing myself that i was destined
to be nothing more than a wilting wall flower.
now it reminds me of the sleepless nights
and the endless thoughts of
“will i ever be enough?”
“will i ever fall asleep?”
i don’t like that song anymore,
maybe one day it will all be a faded memory
but today it stings.